Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Trying to decipher why I like “Twilight” so much

So "Breaking Dawn, Part 1" came out to the theaters last week.  I saw it at midnight in San Francisco at a theater where my friends and I could buy reserved seats.  And, or course, I love it!  And I even watched it again the following night!  So yeah, I’m like many moms and tweens out there, I’ve got an unrealistic crush on Robert Pattinson and the character he portrays, Edward Cullen.  For those who haven’t read the books or seen the movies, Edward is basically the perfect guy except he’s a vampire.
Let me back track a moment and express how much I love my husband, Bobby.  He is absolutely wonderful and is an awesome husband, best friend and father to our 3 boys!  And I’ve been in love with  him since we started dating when we were 15 years old (25 years ago!)  He is the love of my life!
But I haven’t had a crush on anyone (not including Bobby) since I was 14 years old.  I had a crush on Simon LeBon of Duran Duran.  John Taylor was a close second.  But now that’s I’m 40, how in the world did I end up with a crush on a guy who is 25 years old???!!!  Talk about feeling like a cougar! 
I took some time to think about it.  And I’ve come to realized a few things.  Yes, Stephenie Meyer created this very cool character who is pretty much perfect.  And Robert Pattinson did a great job portraying him.  And Robert is really nice to look at, too.  But what it really is, is that being a Twi-hard (fan of the Twilight saga) has taken me back to a carefree time when I was a teenager, when life was so simple and easy.  (When I was a teenager, it felt like a tough time.)  But now that I’ve lived a bit more, and have had all the challenges that I’ve faced with three boys under the age of 7, having a child with autism, moving away from the support of my family, juggling all the different hats that I wear every day, trying to be the best wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter…..having this crush has given me a way to escape the stress of my life now and go back to pretending to be a teenager and not having any real responsibilities.  Now don’t get me wrong.  I love my life!  It isn’t perfect but it is so incredibly rewarding and I am so lucky to have the life that I have!  But there are moments when I just need to get away.  And it isn’t always easy to call up a friend to go out and get away and go get a pedi at a moment’s notice.  It’s a lot easier to put in the Twilight DVD or pick up one of the books.  In less than a minute, I can forget about the dirty dishes, unfolded laundry, the billions of little projects laying all over the house, and just take a few minutes to be carefree.  Sure, it only last for a short while (I can’t neglect my family for days!)  But taking a few minutes to feel young again (especially now that I’ve got a few gray hairs poking out at the back of my head) really gives me something to giggle about. 
So I’m going to post this blog, give my husband a big kiss and tell him how much I love him, then pick out a DVD to watch.  Twilight?  Eclipse?  “Decisions, decisions.”  (For Twi-hards out there, that was a quote from Jane in Eclipse.)  :)